do not stand at my grave and weep

Poem by Mary Elizabeth Frye:

“Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning’s hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there. I did not die.”

The substance of things

All my life I have had the habit of liking the idea of things and not the thing itself. Only in recent years am I learning to like something for the thing itself. That means, instead of liking the idea of swimming or the idea of learning French, I am actually swimming and learning French.

It’s nice being in the thick of the action, getting lost and stuck in the substance of things. And what’s nice too, in a perverse way, is all of that other stuff – the challenging, boring, difficult bits, the bits that make you wanna pull your hair out.

Because learning French is pull-your-hair-out hard. It’s really tempting to give it up and go back to liking the idea of learning French and not learning French. But the whole thing is also strangely fun. And I swear it’s the difficult and boring and challenging bits that make it fun.

That’s life for you. I could never understand it. But I’m always excited to be on the ride.

Internetless Sunday

Internetless Sunday was… nice, for lack of a better word. No internet = no needless Googling of random words or ideas or people that came to my head, no compulsive website-hopping, no streaming of videos, no podcast-listening, no going down pointless and ultimately uninteresting and time-wasting Internet-rabbit-holes.

All in all, lovely. Internetless Sunday will become a regular thing from now on.

internetless day

Sunday is my internetless day. A new year experiment of sorts. I’ll report back on Monday.

Till then I leave you with this quote:

“The bad news is you’re falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is, there’s no ground.”
— Chögyam Trungpa