Buying books again

I have decided that I will buy books again, that I will live in a house full of books again even if it means I cannot move as nimbly through the world. Because I love books. It’s as simple as that. I love books, I want to own books, and I will own books.

I’m saying this because last year I had this bizarre new idea that maybe I should give away most of my books and keep only the few I really like/love (and I really did give away more than 50% of them).

But that’s utter nonsense.

I’m going to start buying books again.

Wiliam Zinsser

I read William Zinsser for the pleasure of reading William Zinsser, who continues to teach me how to write clear, focused, plain sentences about the things that matter to me.

He also reminds me that, in the end, “writing and thinking and learning” are the same process — that if I want to think better or learn better, then I’d better keep writing.

If you’d like to do the same, check out one of Zinsser’s many books about writing — On Writing Well, Writing to Learn, Writing Places.

There are no manuals

There are no manuals for the construction of the individual you would like to become. You are the only one who can decide this and take up the lifetime of work that it demands. This is a wonderful privilege and such an exciting adventure. To grow into the person that your deepest longing desires is a great blessing. If you can find a creative harmony between your soul and your life, you will have found something infinitely precious. You may not be able to do much about the great problems of the world or to change the situation you are in, but if you can awaken the eternal beauty and light of your soul, you will bring light wherever you go. The gift of life is given to us for ourselves and also to bring peace, courage, and compassion to others.

– JOHN O’DONOHUE

old and new stories


(How proteins are made in the cell from DNA code — image from here)

I’m fascinated by the fact that we are of this time but not really of this time. Our genes have a long and storied lineage. We carry in our bodies instructions and stories from a long time ago — and also memories, mythologies, traumas, wisdom.

We only think we’re “modern” because most of us live among skyscrapers and listen daily to the screech of car tyres on the tarmac. But we are really old. And our bones are capable of telling the oldest of stories.

It’s a privilege to be here then, isn’t it? To be so old and yet so new to this world.

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Writing is how we perpetually reach towards the part of our mind that is unconscious, automatic, old and hyper intelligent. It’s how we find our way back.

It’s how we can come to discover, track by track, trail by trail, who we are.

“Know thyself”, the ancient Greeks said. The idea, I believe, is not to fully resolve all the mysteries but to simply enjoy the journey of finding out who we are.

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I didn’t enjoy science as a kid because I didn’t know better. I was not interested in the world outside of my own feelings and emotions. When I grew up I finally saw that science is a gateway to the spirituality I have always yearned for. The more I learn about the mind, the genes in my body, the invisible physical laws of the world, the hidden mathematics beneath the seemingly ordinariness of life, the more I come to see that there is more, much more, to the story.

Science is about discovery. It never rests on its laurels and declares any idea as being fixed. There is no finishing line in science because there’s always something to be discovered, some further understanding to be had.

Even though neuroscientists have made huge strides in understanding the brain — enough to do life-saving neurosurgery — still no one really knows where the mind is located. We still don’t understand the full picture of how consciousness can be created from physical material. And no scientist can tell you for sure that God or a Greater Consciousness doesn’t exist, because they know there’s always some further understanding to be had.

Maybe in the grand scheme of things we are still apes fumbling with our crudely-shaped tools, still a long way off from discovering fire.

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Awe:

“I’m not saying that materialism is incorrect, or even that I’m hoping it’s incorrect. After all, even a materialist universe would be mind-blowingly amazing. Imagine for a moment that we are nothing but the product of billions of years of molecules coming together and ratcheting up through natural selection, that we are composed only of highways of fluids and chemicals sliding along roadways within billions of dancing cells, that trillions of synaptic conversations hum in parallel, that this vast egglike fabric of micron-thin circuitry runs algorithms undreamt of in modern science, and that these neural programs give rise to our decision making, loves, desires, fears, and aspirations. To me, that understanding would be a numinous experience, better than anything ever proposed in anyone’s holy text. Whatever else exists beyond the limits of science is an open question for future generations; but even if strict materialism turned out to be it, it would be enough.”
“Incognito”, David Eagleman

NYC, 2018

In the middle of my stay in Boston, E and I took a short trip to NYC. Only two days, but enough to eat the best pasta I’ve ever had in my life so far and visit museums and get shocked at the amount of human beings Times Square can contain. E got food poisoning on our trip there and promised to be a better host the next time she accompanied me to NYC.

I do miss traveling and all the strangeness and unexpected joy that come along with it. And all the food. THE FOOD.

PS: You’ve got this, NYC! Because you’re NY tough.

thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building

“Dear Bard students,

Welcome to Bard College! You are now a part of the academic universe of thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building. Your first class will be Language & Thinking (L&T), which begins on Monday, August 15th. All Bard freshman experience L&T, a two-week immersion into thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building, thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building, thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building, thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building, thinking, reading, writing, discussing and knowledge-building.

For our first class, you should read the book, Citizen by Claudia Rankin, and the hand-out, Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. Both of these readings should be in your new folder (or at least with it).

Looking forward to Monday. Be ready to think, read, write, discuss and knowledge-build, think, read, write, discuss and knowledge-build, think, read, write, discuss and knowledge-build, think, read, write, discuss and knowledge-build, think, read, write, discuss and knowledge-build.”

Watching College Behind Bars and this made me smile!

Find out more about the Bard Prison Initiative here.