a beautiful life

A beautiful picture of your life isn’t the same as a beautiful life.

A beautiful life isn’t about loving yourself or loving others but loving both yourself and others.

A beautiful life looks like a vase with scars on it because it was once broken but someone took time and effort to patch the pieces back together.

A beautiful life cannot be planned or executed perfectly but can be experienced fully.

A beautiful life is honest. But honesty isn’t possible until you learn to see and acknowledge and tear down all the walls you have built up in order to protect yourself.

A beautiful life is one lived awake, or one lived trying to be awake.

A beautiful life is full of “trying”.

A beautiful life is beautiful despite cancer, business failures, the loss of a marriage, financial mistakes.

A beautiful life is knowing you are nothing and everything.

A beautiful life is something you’re already living.

Enjoy every moment of it.

special

I don’t know myself well enough. And I have hidden thoughts that I don’t always articulate or bring to the surface.

For example, I only recently realised I have this thought that I should be special.

But why should I be?

I know, because if I am special (if I am especially talented or especially brave, for example) then I can justify my self-worth. Because I somehow believe that my self-worth is tied up with being more successful or being more talented than other people. But of course, this is a terribly weak and flawed idea, because there will always be other people who are smarter and more talented and more successful than me.

The thing is, I’m really not more special than other people. And that’s perfectly fine and natural. No human being is more special than another human being. And no human being needs to be special in order to be loved.

This is part of my ongoing effort to rewrite the flawed scripts – such as this one – in my head.

35

35 today and counting all my blessings! Thankful for friends, family and fried chicken. And thank you earth. Thank you sky. Thank you clouds. Thank you Jesus, Buddha and Guanyinma. Thank you universe. For all of this brilliant life to live. It’s so so so wonderful to be alive!

For my birthday, I have also started my first ever fundraising campaign for Charity Water! We take clean water for granted, but many people around the world don’t have this basic need covered. Without clean water sources, people are prevented from living a healthy, full, dignified life.

The beautiful thing about Charity Water is that 100% of the money we donate is used to build clean water projects. After they are built, Charity Water will send us photos and GPS coordinates and update us on the positive effects our donations have made to the specific community we helped.

The link to donate is here. I ambitiously set USD$1,000 as my goal. But come to think about it, it’s not ambitious at all. Let’s give the gift of clean water to people who need it. Let’s go!!! And thank you so much for your kindness in supporting the campaign in advance.

PS: We have already raised $688 so far!

ten recent thoughts

  1. Be less preoccupied with figuring out what REALLY matters and spend more time just doing whatever it is you like.
  2. It’s entirely okay to make your art in private.
  3. Reminder: The current moment is an intensely interesting place to be.
  4. To reduce conflict in our lives, we need to fully accept the truth that other people are not meant to think the same way as we do, since we all have fundamentally different thinking systems, informed by our past experiences, upbringing, education, the things we read, etc.
  5. Soul > technique.
  6. Money-making is not and doesn’t have to be evil.
  7. We don’t need more well-written essays in the world. But we do need more blog posts, more journal entries, more people sharing about what’s going on in their lives, what’s making them happy or sad…
  8. Action precedes inspiration / motivation.
  9. Try doing something while genuinely NOT caring about the outcome. Can you do it?
  10. To be contented is to realise that you already have everything you need to be happy, and everything else is just a bonus.